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I’m Effing Tired March 24, 2010

Posted by Trisha Lyn Fawver in General Rambling.
I'm so fucking tired.  I'm tired of trying to be 'in'.  I'm almost 30 years old, when does this pathetic desire to be 'in' end?  I'm tried of wanting to be 'in' with the groups of friends on the board.  I'm tired of wanting to be 'in' within my industry.  When do I finally get to be happy with me, happy with the friends I have, and not keep clutching at this never-ending desire to be part of the 'in' crowd? 

I'm downright sick of it.  Why do I care what people I've met a handful of times that live thousands of miles away from me think?  So fucking what.  Why do I try so hard to be their friend when they're not trying to be mine?  So fuck it, from here out, I'm not pursuing this bullshit.  I just un-friended a lot of people on Facebook.  People I'm not sure have ever shown me the reciprocation of friendship.  If you got cut and still want to be friends, sorry it was sort of a rash decision so I understand… just re-friend me.  But I'm going to live the way I want with the friends I have and stop questioning if people are really my friends or not.

So yeah.  End rant I guess.

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